i go back to december all the time

i'm so glad you made time to see me. how's life? tell me how's your family. i haven't seen them in a while. you've been good, busier than ever, we small talk, work and the weather, your guard is up and i know why. because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind. you gave me roses and i left them there to die. so this is me swallowing my pride, standing in front of you saying, "i'm sorry for that night," and i go back to december all the time. it turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you. wishing i'd realized what i had when you were mine. i'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right. i go back to december all the time. these days i haven't been sleeping, staying up, playing back myself leavin'. when your birthday passed and i didn't call. and i think about summer, all the beautiful times, i watched you laughing from the passenger side. realized that i loved you in the fall. and then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind you gave me all your love and all i gave you was "goodbye". so this is me swallowing my pride standing in front of you saying, "i'm sorry for that night." and i go back to december all the time. it turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you, wishing i'd realized what i had when you were mine. i'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind i go back to december all the time.