Have you ever stepped out of the light, and realized there's a stranger inside?

Where am I beginning? The pains of mortals are confusing, helping my closest friend is far and beyond my reach. I am thinking...I am useless. There is being nothing I am saying or doing that is making a difference. The power of white is still being quite trusting of me, just so. Am I to being failing the one time I'm seeking redemption? No. I must needs continuing. If it's the boy my deity is wanting a guardian and teacher for, it shall be just so. I'm at least able to being doing that one little thing... I am not forgetting my own lessons of boyhood.

It is being troublesome, however... I am having many enemies already. They are not all realizing their threat to my goals yet, but soon... There is being a woman of Justice, seeking my blood. I've no love for my past, but it is still existing, just so. Cursed I am being, yet I am not being a free creature of my sins. Like the tree boy hassling me constantly, I am a liar, pretending to be normal. My lies will being lasting far longer than anything he will ever being dreaming of. My bloodied past is tearing others asunder and leaving them as twisted as I, just so. For these sins of mine, I am being sorry, but not enough. Never enough.

Is it not a sad thing, then, that I am being worthy of the company of a little princess? I am lying to her as readily as I am anyone else. No. More so. I am thinking perhaps I am lying to myself most. Even the wisest lady I am ever meeting is not seeing through me. Her eyes are not seeing the truth, only what she is wanting to see. Only the Eleventh is seeing through my lies, and yet he is not calling me on them. I am wondering why? But, no answer is coming. I am not truly wanting them.

I am waiting for the mortal realm. Waiting patiently in the shadows as I ever have, just so... As the chaos is unfolding, I am doing my duty. Only this and no more. Is this not a laughable concept? Yes, I am thinking so.