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welcome to my application for Feglai!disclaimer: I was not coerced in any way into making this petpage. I chose to out of my own free will.
Greetings! I am so giddy upon typing this that I can hardly stand it. The joy that overtook me when, following a friend's direction, I stumbled across your board on the PC, is indescribable. A UC Darigan Aisha being up for adoption is something I had only ever dreamed I would see, and Feglai (or Fe, as I will be referring to her as throughout this application) is so absolutely perfect. Seeing her made me cast aside my vow to myself that I would not apply for any pet again - not after the last crushing disappointment (which coincidentally had also been the first petpage application I had ever made) that I experienced several months ago. I had to have her; I had to try. If I did not, I would forever be haunted by thoughts of 'what if?'
My trouble is this - I do not find myself able to create elaborate characters and stories for my pets. I love them dearly, I beg you not to question that. It it simply a matter of my own lack of creativity as I grow older. Years ago on this site, I would roleplay. I adored it; I came online only to do so. But I did not roleplay with my pets as my characters. That was something that never occurred to me to even attempt. The idea of something like that never entered my head until recently, and these days I find myself unable to conjure even the simplest plot idea or character. I must be prompted to write anything - all my inspiration has left me. It deeply saddens me, but it is not something I can really change.
The point I am attempting to make is this: in this application, you will not find a character description, and you will not find a snippet of a story; nor will you find art of this character who does not exist, because my drawing ability does not either. If you have any bias towards those who do these things and would rather see Fe go to such an owner, then I should advise you to not read any further, as much as in pains me to say so. But if you do not hold such a bias; if you would see Fe go to a loving and devoted home regardless of the existence of a character, than please, do read on. For while you will not find a story about Fe, you will find a story about myself, and the journey that has led me to type the words you are now reading.
plansMy story begins ten years ago, when I created my first Neopets account in 2004. I was twelve, and joined at the request of a friend who had been playing for quite some time before me. I played, but not intensively. My friend and I would challenge each other at games; we would chat with each other and friends we had made on the Avatar Chat board; and we would show each other the pets we wanted most in the world. For her, that pet was a Mutant Buzz; for me, it was a Darigan Aisha. She was a more involved, intense player than I, and she achieved her dream pet. I, being young and naive, could not be bothered with most things on the site that would make the neopoints needed to achieve mine. And so I would simply ogle the ones I could find, wishing and wanting.
Years passed. I created a new account, disliking the username I had chosen for my first. I had begun to realize that if I could only save enough, I could achieve the pets I had always wanted, and I began to try. I have never excelled at saving - restocking causes me great difficulty, and my skill at games is severely lacking. It is and always has been a very slow process for me. As time passed, the friend at whose request I had joined Neo and I drifted apart, and so I drifted from the site. Coming back from one particularly long spell away, I discovered that everything had changed. It was 2007, and the conversion had just recently happened. Pets looked completely different - to my eyes, horribly so. Where were the unique poses, and expressions, the artwork of certain colors that I had come to love so much? I hurried to check my own pets, only to discover that two of my three had been auto-converted. My third gave me a choice - I could leave it as it had been, if I chose, or convert it. If I did not choose by a certain date, it would automatically be converted. The date given was just a few days away, as my luck would have it. Naturally I chose to keep my pet as it had been, and I wondered: what other pets, if any, had been given this choice?