-invalid_words- [not completed, more to come]

i'm too young to not believe in fairy tales,
but too old to believe in love.

there is only so much to believe in; you have a choice. there's the logical and the uncomprehendable. there's the dependable and the forsaken. there's dreams, there's hope, there's love. which is for me?

you learn a lot, even at a young age. every minute is piled with thousands of lessons, some oblivious to the student. you learn, you apply. applications are our lessons reflected, and they are what help us decide.

{name} vayela [vay-el'-uh] {gender} femme {species} lupe {optics} chestnut {pelt} white {special} a). olive green speckles on feet and ankles b). dark olive green nose c). light olive green leafy wings d). folded ears e). short tail {pet} aluenne {desire} never

aluenne. [ah'-loo-enn]
aluenne is my tasu, though it's not often i see her. i think she follows me around at times, since she's always there to stop me if i'm making a wrong decision. she's like my little guardian.

the gladiator.
my birthday is april 5th.

image not done by _kazarry_

according to neopian astrology, i am a gladiator, and with each sign comes an element. my element, fire, represents strength, energy, and chaos. strength appears to be my cardinal attribute, though i don't believe i'm that strong. as a gladiator, i should be competitive, confident, but most of all, adventurous. i should be cursed with a temperous nature, being able to forgive, though never forget. this isn't me at all.

the story.
i've heard stories, all about him, but, i never once got that impression. he was my older brother, nothing less. he was ryan, and he was practically my hero.

he used to be in love, but he doesn't talk about her anymore. i saw pictures, and many of the stories i've heard had her name. laskhan. i never met her, she was before my time, but she was beautiful, inside and out. they were in love; they lived the fairy tale.

ryan was different before her; she changed him. his heart stayed with him, but his eyes wandered. too much. when she came along, all that changed. he straightened up, and it was a miracle. no one ever thought he could stand such a position.

so what happened? no one's really sure. laskhan disappeared from him, and ryan seemed distant for a long time. he refuses to talk, he always avoids the subject. what happened to their love?

ryan relapsed into his old self, chasing the tails... i didn't understand. when you're young, you're taught anything can happen, and that love is the greatest. i ask again, what happened to their love?

love isn't supposed to die. i grew up with ryan in his sullen phase, and just recently that ryan was left behind to make room for the former. how can he move on from her like that if he was in love? love isn't supposed to die.

heros have never been heroic...
they only kill your dream.

the choice.
how can i choose love? it eventually dies, as the story says, and there's no hope for it. i'll follow my dreams, i'll leave my heart in my chest.

roleplay.
if you want to roleplay with vayela, please neomail _kazarry_.
roleplay: [open] closed
sample:
The wind was breezy, swaying much of the tall grass and leaves around, whisking the ankles of a small lupe. She was just standing there, standing in an open field, staring at the forest.

She was counting to herself. Sunset was near, and soon the forest would be her playground. She preferred the night, not for any sinister thoughts or doings, but for the beauty. Fireflies were intriguing...

She crouched, her mostly white form moving lower to the ground, her wings being pulled against her back, and her floppy ears brisked the tops of her chestnut eyes. Her heart was pounding with excitement, she just loved this part of her day.

this is a typical starter as for length and detail, but as dialogue develops, length decreases. don't be intimidated.

music.
now playing: i miss you- jamestown story

lyrics:
-invalid_words- Yesterday was full of tears,
Knowing death has just been here.
All was lost but not forgot,
The pain controls my every thought.
A new day's battle has begun,
All was lost and nothing's won.
I can't wait to see the day
When the tears all go away...
I miss you, I kissed you...
When we layed you in your grave.
I need you to believe you,
Things were meant to be this way...
Today came with shattered dreams.
Everything's not what it seems.
Don't think death won't come get you,
Because it will, life's misconstrued.
Though my battle's just begun,
I'm dropping arms and going to run.
I can't wait to see the day
When painful tears all go away...
I miss you, I kissed you...
When we layed you in your grave.
I need you to believe you,
Things were meant to be this way...
I did nothing at all,
It's all my fault your gone...
Your face on my wall,
It tells it all,
You will live on...

credits.

-all pictures drawn in ms paint[except top banner] with a mouse by _kazarry_, thievery is not permitted.
[unless stated otherwise]

-all text is (c)_kazarry_, thievery is not permitted.

-music uploaded to my server, thievery is not permitted. upload it yourself.

farewell.
feel free to collect this patch if you wish to lead others, or perhaps yourself again, back here.

<a href="http://neopets.com/~Vayela"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v449/kazarry/vayelapatch.gif" border="0" alt="Follow your dreams, leave your heart in your chest."></a>

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