You expect a tale.

Very well then, if you will leave…me…in peace. Afterwards.

Let's see…I am no great teller of tales. I believe an introduction is needed, yes?

I may seem youthful to you, a lupe in his prime. But that is not the case.

Youth is foolish. I was foolish. Was it worth it? To defend those I loved…No. An eternity of youth…. Some even dream of it.

As I was a fool: the dreamers are.

I lived a happy life. I had a mate; I no longer remember her name, though I can still see her in my dreams ... I had pups... I will not speak any longer of them. They are lost to me, long turned to dust by time. I cannot say that I miss them any longer.

-He sighs-

I lived with my kin, in a small coastal village. We were happy. Carefree. Unbound. Life was simple.

My memory grows hazy… A great danger came, a mighty beast from the sea. I rose to meet it, but I was cut down. Broken, unable to go on. The battle raged beyond me. My vision failed, and I was carried into a sea of darkness. Voices whispered around me, and I could feel myself leaving. Terrified, I fought the pull of death. I would not accept my demise. I had been tested and found a coward.

What I then most despised and feared is now my greatest desire.

I made a deal. I wished to stay. I told myself I wished to return only to protect my family. I lied. Fool. Afraid of rest. Afraid to depart. Fool. How ashamed I am now…

…I awoke as the tide receded. My wounds were healed; the scores and gashes that had lain across my back reduced to nothing more than jagged scars.

I ran, faster than I ever could have before. I was stronger as well. I took a great and idiotic pride in that…My heightened senses led me to the destruction.

I found her first, upon the damp sand. But…she died as I came to her. She knew what I had done, and she feared, even hated me for it. The look in her eyes…

-he sighs-

We fought, the beast and I. Tooth against claw. I struck it with many grievous wounds. The beast returned them in full. My hide tore away, but I could not lose. It was I who attained the final blow. The creature faded away from this world. It did not know fear. With the rush of battle fading, I found myself ashamed of taking it. I found myself ashamed of coming back.

Fool.

In the gathering darkness, in the light of the fires, I finally saw my face. I had changed. Old friends no longer recognized me. Those who could see beyond the mask were shocked. I buried my little family under anxious glances.

I soon left my home. There was a growing despair inside of me, and it did not belong there…I did not yet know of what I had done; yet I could feel the burden on my shoulders, ever present. The details of my life afterwards are lost to me. A gray fog of nothing. Nothing and nothing.

Nothing… Not disease nor wound nor age could harm me. I was undefeatable. Yet I was defeated.

Time began to wear me away. I slept, praying for a lack of dreams, cursing those I had. I wanted to rest. I was tired of the eternity of consciousness. Years passed.

My heart and mind grew dim. I left this world and retreated back into myself. I grew…irrational. Eccentric. Some may say dangerous. I remembered. I forgot. I remembered less. A gray blur passed before my eyes. It was my existence, without spark or passion or flame. The world taunted me.

Every moment the pain grew. My eyes no longer saw, my mouth no longer spoke. I would cry out to end it. My throat made no sound. I traveled, not caring where or how or why. Just putting one foot in front of the other. I drifted far and wide, until the land became familiar again, until there was nothing new. I was chasing my tail.

Eventually…I took a hold on and of myself. A ferocity of will that could only have been cultivated by the years of wretchedness pulled me to the surface of my mind. I was reborn. Feverishly I tried to fill the gap in my soul, learning and finding and gasping for breath so that I could be. Banishing my despair and caring for what I once scorned. I was again. Not whole mind you, but I was. And that was enough for then.

-he smiles- And here I am.

I found myself, here in this place. They do not make me as tired as I once was. The pain of life is duller here, and things do not seem to fade so easily. I…I find myself at peace.

I have taken up reading. I spend my days learning and filling my head with sweet literature. I try to fill the hours, and count only the happy ones. They are too few. My soul longs for redemption. A dull thought in the back of my mind speaks to me in these moments. The supply is not endless. I will awake one morning and find I have exhausted every resource of sanity.

-He cracks a wry grin.-

Hmmm. You are bored of this constant whining, are you not? -laughs- You are the one who asked for it, guest -His eyes twinkle for but a moment- Do not think that this is all I am. It is what I am. A foolish lupe who made a mistake. I dwell on that thought too much, I suppose. You should learn something other of me.

My associates – Friends and 'relatives'

Dracochex. He is bitter. For no apparent reason. Aggravating would be an excellent word. I must admit that we do not see eye to eye.

Dragonic_Feilong I envy him. I freely admit it. He is carefree, kind. Happy. Brave and knowledgeable. A great warrior. He hides no demons and seeks to slay other's.

HiddenFate He is like I, bound to live until the end of time. A mystery to me, he is meant to have immortality, and thus is the greater. …I should say more. He mocks those that are not like us. A fond ridicule, but ridicule all the same. He has a morbid fascination with this world, but he does not see the beauty of it.

Ehlnofex He and Fate seem to know each other. From another place and time. He has helped me the most. His fascination with all things mortal is an almost naïve sense of wonder that spreads to a love of all things. Yet he is wise, and brave. There is much hidden behind his content face.

Katariah A stunning lady peophin. Fascinated with the arcane. I hope she does not delve too deep…

Chex Our benefactor. Quite insane really.

Likes.

Sleep

Books.

Skrees

Seafood

Dislikes.

Clocks

Cold weather

Petpet

-he sighs- I don't have a petpet.(Unless you count my avatar mazzew) I love going to Tyrrania and watching the Skrees fly though. They're quite beautiful. Maybe if Chex wasn't so destitute…

Art.

I've placed in the beauty contest… Once. With a rather ugly picture.

Mutant Lupe Adoptables. Thank you to those who made me customs. =)

Petpages I admire

Coming soon

Adoptables.v.3

See my lookup for availability.

Rules

1. Do not use in the BC, AG, or anything else.

2. You may change their size, but you cannot otherwise alter them.

3. If you want a normal color just ask. I don't have time to do one for every color so I'll treat it like any other request.

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