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Where Am I?
It cannot possibly be over... I have simply entered a new state of the dream. I was the center of existence, I was the creator, the emperor, the God. It is impossible to think that I have fallen so far. Yet I cannot deny the evidence placed before me- my eyes have never lied to me before. I have woken up. Is this really what reality feels like?
The air tastes the same; the wind blows just as strongly as anywhere else. Yet this is a new world entirely.
It has been so long; I don't even remember what I was before. If I was before. This is a fine tragedy now, it seems I have lost absolutely everything. My power, my home, even the will that drove me to such divine strength previously. Once again I find myself completely alone, and yet I seem to feel no differently. Everything I held once, what did it all amount to? Was it all worthless?
Maybe, just maybe I can make a new life for myself. I am the emperor after all... Have I truly been sleeping all these years? Or has it only been a breath of air?
I doubt I have any other options. I will move forward.
Excerpt from the Private Records of the High Emperor
I don't have the proper words to describe this place; I doubt anyone will ever be able to do it justice verbally. To understand, one must experience the wonders one can find here, to see, feel, and know. I have wondered over the past few decades why I even bother to write about my knowledge of this world. The only ones who would ever read my words would already know what I am speaking of. Still, in a way I suppose that by keeping up with these records, I keep myself sane and tied to this place. After all, our greatest fear of all has been the fear of waking and losing everything.
And so I continue my attempts.
Imagine a world where reason and logic are meaningless words; a world where the laws of science and math dictate nothing and there are no restrictive words like 'impossible' or 'unordinary.'
Imagine then a world where the life you know one day could be completely different from the one you find the next; consistency is a rare find.
Welcome to the islands Outside Infinity.
I suppose you can call me an Emperor here, a founding father if you will even. I was the first, after all, to discover these marvelous five islands and the secrets they hold. To share it with the world I knew, that was my dream.
But I've learned something since I've come here… You can't just find this place. I don't even remember how /I/ got here, I just woke up on the beach one day and that was the end of my old life. It's been centuries now, even millions of years… I have long lost count. In those endless lifetimes here I have learned many things, and I have come to discover that the people who show up here are the people who aren't looking for this place. You could search for a thousand years and never even come close because these islands… these islands don't exist. At least, not in the sense we're used to things existing. This place has no law, no reason, and no fact. It's a scientist's nightmare. The reason this place can't be charted on any map, or so I've come to believe, is that it exists in the mind. It is a dream world almost, but one tangible and realistic in every aspect but its logic.
I say I was the first because when I arrived here there was nothing but sea and sand. No plants, no animals, nothing. There were three elements in my life then: ocean, earth, sky.
The Arrival of Everything Else
For some time, the world stayed that way. Empty. Quiet. As time passed though, the land began to change. I don't know how often it happened. The changes were so small, so seemingly unimportant, I didn't even recognize them as true changes until many years later and in retrospect. It would happen like this: I would be lying around in my self-pity and sorrow, and then there would be a plant, or a shell, or even just a rock. Something insignificant, but new all the same. At the time I ignored their arrival, and it wasn't long before the island was filled with such things. It changed daily, forming itself into an island that might have been familiar or recognizable to me stone by stone. The island was conforming to my desire and I was completely unaware.
I don't know how long it truly took me to get out of that depressive slump, and to realize that I had been placed in a paradise, built just for me... just for me...
I began to enjoy my solitude on the island, and to study. After all, once I escaped my prison of sorrow, I began to realize that the island had truly built itself around my desires, my thoughts. If so much could be created on thought alone, what else could be done? I began to practice, to create. For centuries my power was small, minimal. I could make a clump of grass grow slowly forth from the sand. I could cause ripples to spread in still water without laying a paw to it. Thousands of years beyond that, and I could begin to change larger aspects of the world and more importantly... myself. I was learning faster and faster of the power sheer will had on the island.
Still, it took several millenia to reach the stage I'm at now.
I have complete control.
And then the others began arriving.
A Kingdom of My Own
They all begin at the Hub.
It's why I've taken the middle island up as my personal kingdom, and all who arrive learn very quickly of my reign. They are sorted then; not everyone can handle such a muddle of species and souls so early on, and thus the 4 corner islands were divided to help incoming spirits find their own. There are some who never leave the Hub, but most are directed to North, South, East, or West in time and develop a home there.
Now naturally, I COULD control all of these islands without the bat of an eyelid... but an Emperor has more important things on his plate than watching over every minor subject in his kingdom. And so the Four Nobles arose to lead over the Corner Islands, under my jurisdiction of course. They were no where near my own levels of power, but these spirits had also discovered the unique abilities of will on the Islands and had honed their skills to a sizable level.
And so there was a balance of peace in my world. There was, every so often, some fool of an infidel who would attempt to 'overthrow' my reign or gather some rebellion... but they forget themselves. More importantly, they forget who I am.
My pet lobster collection seems to grow larger with every passing century.
Despite these infrequent revolutions, the world ran smoothly enough. In time, everyone leaves the Islands. Kings and Queens rose and fell like the waves, and in the Islands where change is destiny only one thing remains constant. I am Emperor supreme. I cause the tide to roll in, I cause the palms to grow, I cause children to cry and laugh. There is only one thing that I cannot do now and that is summon or banish the souls here. I can make their lives a living hell but I cannot force them to leave the Islands.
It seems that is a power reserved for the very essence of these lands, but perhaps one day I will be privy to it. After all, it's owed to me. I am the rock that keeps this world together, and it is my will that upholds order... or causes chaos. So it is now, so it always has been, so it always will be.
An Identity is a terrible thing to lose...
Name: Phantasmyr
Species: Assuming form of a wolf. Original body long forgotten.
Age: Millions of Years
Mother: Long forgotten
Father: Long forgotten
Siblings: ...
Children: Ardemyr & Phantalys, never met.
Eyes: A range of amber-gold usually.
Fur: Preference is a dark blue body with mirror-like spots speckling the underbelly and legs.
Love: I have everything I could ever need.
Friends: Who isn't a companion of the emperor?
Foes: Those foolish enough are dealt with with ease.
Home: The Hub Island Outside Infinity Kudashima, Shukumei
Other: Original inhabitant of the five Infinite Islands, a self-proclaimed emperor with a will so immense he can control every aspect of his world.
Of Scandalous Affairs
So, now that I've been all ridiculously serious and formal with you... gonna have to shake things up a bit. If it's LOVE you're looking for, you've come to the right place. ;) Truth is, I'm quite the party animal. See this lobster over here? Yeah? That's my special lobster. Pretty hot stuff, isn't it ;DDDD Yeah. You know what I'm talking about. Anyway, as though it were not special enough on its own, wait till you see what I can DO with it. I'm not emperor of this island for nothing, y'know.
Point being, I have complete control over everything here. EVERYTHING. Every aspect of sea or sky or life and of death. It takes some people centuries here to learn just to alter small details like size and color and even then only with immense effort. It's a draining process for even the most powerful of wills, but I barely have to bat an eyelid and that lobster you see there... Don't blink now or you'll miss it...
THERE. Blinked, didn't you? I warned you about it. As you can quite clearly see, the aforementioned lobster is now this rather lovely bass. I'm terribly talented, you know. ;D Gorgeous, aren't I? And these aren't just cute little magic tricks or illusions, nor are they even a fraction of what I CAN do. As I said, every aspect imaginable of this world is under my control, and my influence. Getting the picture yet?
Like it or not, you have no choice in the matter. You will love me.
Loneliness is a surefire path to insanity.
Tahn : I have had the pleasure of meeting Tahn twice now, though in very, very different situations. The first time I met her she doesn't even remember, but at one time Tahn was the Queen of the Verre Island Outside Infinity. We were companions then, they were good days. Tahn disappeared from the islands as everyone does eventually, and when I myself woke up I found that she still exists in Verre... But an entirely different Verre from the one I had remembered. She is something akin to a Queen here as well, and I have been named as a Sage of the Nirvanan lands. We meet far less frequently now because of this division, but I still am graced with her presence every now and again.
Rhist :One of the very few people I know believes me. A charming young lass with an odd affinity for mushrooms- and they say I'm insane! All the same she's been very friendly towards me throughout my ventures in the new world and I'm very grateful for her trust and kindly manner.
Ardelis : Who... are you?
Wandering A New World
Verre
Shukumei My greatest fears have been realized; I have at last woken up from the dream. After millions of years on my beloved islands, I have returned to reality. But what sort of reality is this? They call it Shukumei here, a dreamlike territory itself that is filled with incredible creatures and places. I still cannot bear to think that I have forever lost the islands, but this is not such a bad place. There is something delightfully satisfying about facing the unknown... an adventurous air I suppose that I never had when I was in control of everything. It's refreshing, and the people here welcome me openly. For the time being I suppose I shall settle.
And who knows? With time I may find myself rediscovering my former abilities.
Witness the Power of Will
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