MAY 2012 14th
Kitty is going to induce a heart attack... She found another UC Faerie Pteri UFA. I'm so conflicted now.
I /could/ take the easy way out and quit working on this application for Fleur, but.. it's the easy way out. I don't want to treat Erita as a replacement, as a piece of tape to cover a gap meant for a cork, you know? But it would be so much... easier.
I mean, why make things harder than they should be? is what one part of me is saying.
Another part of me says... that's wrong. That the hard way should be taken.
Even so.. the one part wants to reply what's so wrong about the easy way? Is it that bad? Should you /really/ stress yourself out with all that stuff below, on top of the application?
And the other comes back with the fact that I love Fleur. Some pixels on a screen... but I love them. Her. And that I shouldn't give up when I've hardly even tried. Fyora, why did things have to time up like this?!
Sigh. I don't know what to do right now. I should probably be studying instead of talking to myself on Neopets.. kdslfj.
Just.. I have to read this again.
On a happier note, I painted Bysmal Chocolate today with my FFQ. Pepto should come home soon too. I can't wait until then! If only transfers and the pound weren't so restrictive.
MAY 2012 12th
okok it hasn't been a FULL month since I've last blogged, so this counts for something, right?!
I am so freaking busy, I barely even have time for my app uuuuuuuuuugh ;______; I feel like punching something for how frustrated I am at the amount of hours in a day.
Let's see:
- May 16th Olly comes back to hopefully get to critiquing my accounts.
- May 17th AP Statistics test, plus studying the few days coming up to it.
- May 22nd Rough draft of a 1500 word research paper due.
- May 24th Doctor's appointment an hour away from home.
- May 25th Prom, plus the shopping I'm doing today for it (possibly more shopping - yay?)
- May 27th App due.
- May 29th Final draft of research paper due.
And then some time between all that, I have to call the community college to set up orientation and stuff. SDIFUSLDFJOIHASNV,MCDLSKJF. I don't even know why I'm blogging ALDKJ.
APRIL 2012 17th
The Food Bloc is officially open today! It feels wonderful to have finished such a big project. Well, I haven't really finished it since it's an ongoing site, but you get the idea! I'm so immensely proud of it. I can't really say anything else about it - I hope this bloc lasts for a long time.
On a somewhat related note, Neopia's heroes are in my favor, because guess what? I got a freaking Fountain Faerie Quest! I spazzed out on the recruitment board for a little, squealed a few times, and quite literally leapt out of joy when I saw her quest dialogue. Here are some screenies (drag & drop):


You know it's a big deal to me when I actually take screenies. I didn't even screenie hatching Ishi or adopting any of my other pets, but I suppose I was expecting to be there someday anyway. I've never even thought that I'd actually get an FFQ before.
Anyway, I digress! This is sort of an overreaction to something on, y'know, /Neopets/. Aren't you going to trade it like a PCer would anyway? you might be thinking. Well, the first part is sort of true, I won't deny that. But I can't trade this FFQ if I'm actually going to use it!
I was afraid that I'd have to spend millions on Aisha Transmogrification Potions on Bysmal to zap her into a Chocolate Aisha, but now I don't have to! I'm so excited to paint her (: I still have to get her Strawberry Collar, which is paint brush clothing, but that's for another time. I'm not sure if I'm willing to let go of 600k at the moment, lol.
APRIL 2012 14th
Wow, monthly blogs are going to be a thing now, aren't they? Well, I have a lot to say this time! Hopefully this won't be too boring, self. No prob, self! Well good then. (:
Things have changed in the month I haven't blogged. I'm a little more confident, happier, and I'm on Spring Break now! More free time, woot. The Food Bloc is almost ready to be opened! I absolutely cannot wait for this. I don't know why I'm not working to open it right now, honestly. OH WAIT.
KITTY FREAKING FOUND A UC FAERIE PTERI UFA. I don't even know how to express my... I can't even find the right words gosh. ;__; Excitement? Motivation? Gratitude? I don't even know. I'm just insanely happy to even have a chance at a UC Faerie Pteri two years sooner than I expected Sovereigne would be ready to trade.
MY ENTIRE NEO-LIFE HAS BEEN BUILDING UP TO THIS POINT. I can't afford to fail myself. I just can't. I don't think I could mentally take that kind of massive failure on my part. If the foster finds and chooses a better person though, I can't really do anything about that... so I've been looking for a designated puncher to snap me out of whatever haze I'll be in if I don't adopt Fleur. Nobody's taken me up on it yet, though. D:
GOSH. WHERE DO I START?! I'm so... scared right now, of what I'm about to get in to and the disappointment I might face.
But this isn't the place to think like that, self! You're right, self. I CAN DO THIS. I can freaking do this. Hold on tight, Fleur - you're coming home on May 27th.
P.S.: Sorry for all the caps. You understand, right, self?
MARCH 2012 11th
Gosh, I haven't blogged in so long. I'm considering trashing this section, but I'll keep it for now. Maybe I'll get back in to blogging.
I'm probably just looking for an excuse to put off doing homework though. I should go do it now, but it's healthy to let your thoughts out (she rationalizes).
...I don't really know what to say though. I finally have Ishi, so I think I'm just being lazy on Neo now. I've been so inactive on the guild.. blargh. I think things will liven up when I'm on spring break though.
I need a breather I guess. I know I've been building my account up to be trustworthy enough to that one future UC Faerie Pteri foster, and every day I don't do at least one thing to improve is a day lost. And that Pteri might go UFA at absolutely any time.
I'm depressing myself now. I'm gonna go do homework to take my mind off this slump.