Last Updated: December 15, 2006

x|x Name: Hendrae x|x Pronounced: Hen-Dray x|x Sire: Eli x|x Dame: Lost x|x Siblings: Taqeri x|x Pelt: Electric x|x Love: That's a hard question... x|x Desire: She knows who she is. ;) x|x Offspring: None x|x Personality: Back to normal x|x Mood: Getting better x|x Roleplay: Open Diary December 15, 2006: Things have certainly turned around for me. A lot has happened since the last log. I've lost contact with Ava, whom of which I am trying to get to be tougher, also with Jhamera, don't know where she's run off to. I have also run into Tackou again. Seeing her made me feel even worse for what had happened. I thought I had it bad, but she had it worse off than me. But seeing her again and talking everything out really seemed to fix things. I believe that I am atleast almost all the way to being 'fixed' once again. Vehxe has amazed me with her loyalty and I've begun to realize that I shouldn't push her away anymore, and that she's worth it. I hope to come in contact with old friends again, and hope that all of them know I will always be here for them to help. November 28, 2006: I want to go, and that's that. I've been making mistakes since I've been back that cannot be taken back. I'm ready to go, this time perhaps for good. November 27, 2006: I have to say, I'm feeling a lot better now. Seclusion drove me to be so depressed, because now that I've met new friends and even an old one my spirits have lifted substantially. Jhamera has come back for the time being. I just hope this time I don't lose contact with her. Vehxe...ha. I can't believe she's put up with me after everything that I've said and done. I'm a mean, bitter thing and she stuck through, who would've thought? But I'm really trying to change, I don't want to be so bitter and mean, I want to be back to what I use to be. And maybe the only way to do that is to talk to her. Note that the 'separation' was mutual, she did nothing wrong, I did nothing wrong. Except it was too early. We are both deeply pained and struggling to cope. November 23, 2006: I have no idea why I came back. Weeks of sulking in myself in the desert did me no good. If anything I'm worse now then I was. I'm not like I use to be, charming, nice and pleasing. My emotions have turned into sourness, I have lacked communications with friends of which I use to deem close. I don't know where I belong and fear that I am turning for the worse. Nothing seems to be going right, and really, right now I could care less. [.Customs.]

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