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Hello and welcome to Talia's Rants. For a long time there's been things that I see on the boards and onsite that can confuse, annoy, anger, and sadden me - so I created this page to contain my little rants. This page will probably be updated every 2 or 3 weeks depending on time and mood.

Updated July 31, 2011

The AC and Looking for MSPP

Before I start, allow me to preface this by saying that in no means is meant to insult all of the AC or anyone with a MSPP avatar. This is simply a reflection of my own personal experience and feelings.

Recently, I decided I wanted to try to for a MSPP lend. This isn't sometihng I'm accustomed to - I barely even borrow off of my own friends. However, I like the avatar and thought it would be perfect to advertise this very page. Plus, many of my friends had it, so I'd thought I'd give it a try. I reluctantly made my way to the AC to create a board.

Now, I had only ever posted on the AC one other time, and I felt a bit overwhelmed. It moves quickly and most everyone there has more avatars then me. The first time I posted, my account was ripped to shreds as I was told that I didn't have enough avatars, my shop/gallery was too small, I needed more stamps, and more trophies. One person even said I had to have adopted my pets because there was no way my 'pathetic' account could have afforded the brushes and potions. Needless to say, I was more than a bit nervous.

The experience with my own more recent boards was a surprisingly friendly one. Most people posted 'good luck' and a few stuck around to chat for a bit. The worst thing that anyone posted was constructive criticism, which is certainly fine with me. While it was difficult to keep my board bumped up among all the other MSPP boards, the people were nice.

If everyone was so nice to me, then why have I decided to end my hunt for MSPP? Well, the problem is two-fold really. One part deals with my own personal feelings about my own board while the other deals with certain lenders.

When I made my board, I just focused on trying to make eye-catching titles, but the truth was I was a little ashamed. In real life and on neo, I've always been taught not to beg. I wouldn't doubt if some of my anxiety on neo comes from my time on the HC. Every day someone is posting that another player shouldn't beg and that asking is begging. I suppose I really believe that because I felt guilty when I made my boards. I have told people in the past not to beg, but that's exactly what I was doing. I was asking to be lent a rather expensive item for very little collateral purely on the fact I was hoping someone found me trustworthy.

That whole issue about being worthy bothered me as well. I had to 'apply' and tell others my achievements so I could show I was worthy of a lend. However, I don't think I'm really any more worthy or deserving than the other dozens of people also hoping for lends. I don't like to brag about myself. I know of my own accomplishments, and I'm proud of them, but I have no real desire to go around trying to make sure everyone else knows about it.

Then, there's issues with some of the lenders themselves. Some are no doubt nice, but there are others who simply want to be praised and go on a bit of a power-trip. I don't care to chat with anybody, and I'll be as nice to a lender as I to anyone else - but I'm not going to fall down at their virtual feet just because I'm hoping they'll let me borrow some item. The other day I posted on a board that, "...people will excuse or defend another person's behavior if they think they might benefit from it." I still stand by those words. There are lenders who act rude and arrogant, but others will come to their defence if anyone dares to point that out.

Overall, there's good and bad on the AC just like any other board. I'm thankful to all of those who were nice and welcoming to me, but I don't think I'll return. In truth, I doubt I'll ever have MSPP, but I'm okay with that. I have something more important. I have the feeling I stayed true to myself.