I wish I could have seen that world. The place the universe used to be. A universe with a million friends, a billion Usagi like Sephru and me. The stories I have read and the tales Sephru tells me make it so achingly clear - there was so much to lose before, and we lost it. My ancestry is stardust now, and my sister and I alone. Hers is the only other Usagi face I have seen directly since the day I was born.
Hey, Hika, what are you doing back there? Come on, I need you with me at the helm! Sephru's impatient voice calls me from outside, shaking me from my reverie. I quickly close the photo app and jump off my bed. It automatically retracts into the wall as I head out of the door and join Sephru by sitting in the copilot's chair. I'm not fully awake yet, though I've sat here enough times now that my hands press the right buttons and pull the right levers without me thinking.
Do you still miss them? I ask softly as I check the systems. I sometimes wonder why Sephru stays so vigilant - we check them so often that there is little else to do.
Miss who? Sephru asks, her hands gliding over the controls. We have both just awoken from our afternoon naps, and she's always beautifully vibrant and energetic after one of these. I'm usually in a dreamy state, and the picture of the past has not helped.
Your family. You still miss them, don't you? Sephru's hands stay remarkably steady as she hears this.
Of course I miss them. Every day. I can't help but think of them, at least once. They were once everything in my life, Hika...now they're gone. Nothing can change that. But it's okay. My life's not empty, because I know you're going to ask. I have you. she smiles a little and looks up at the screen. We've been orbiting a large planet for the last few days, so that our landing systems can charge on the atmosphere of the planet below.