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Current Music: Wasteland - 10 years

I once had it all...someone to love, countless friends, children, a family...a life. But time has seemed to unravel my life one piece at a time. It has all fallen apart, leaving me alone. Look into my eyes and you'll see, I am merely a shell of what I once was. Life has been drained from me, it seems. I believe I can never be fixed. But that's how it goes. I brought my own perdition and my own emotional death. I am my own downfall. And so I believe that I will be forced to live with my misery...having nothing at all except for my memories. They cannot be torn from me. Ever.

¦Name: Akileh
¦Alias: Aki
¦Date of Birth: May 12th, 2004
¦Species: Lupe//Wolf
¦Age: Adult
¦Personality: Sweet, Caring, Selfless, Calm, Delicate, Forgiving, Honest

¦Caretaker: Dais
¦Love: It seems I'm not suppose to love
¦Desire: -sighs painfully- ...
¦Parents: Died in a fire
¦Siblings: Igneous, Niku
¦Friends: Growl, Rhett, Buster, Trick
¦Children: Rien, Fai, Maiic
¦Grand-Children: Rain, Kai, Kati
¦Fosters: Denji, Miza,Zai
¦Pack: Salvaje

I keep wondering why I still bother, but then I remember my friends, family and everyone else who cares for me...I don't want to hurt them by doing something like ending my life. I was being so selfish for so long, and I still feel like I am in a way, but I cannot stop the thoughts. My mind has been my worst enemy lately. Along with the question of what if? or what could have been. It's really hitting me now...just how many terrible mistakes I've made in my life. No one seems sure of anything anymore so I don't know where to turn to for help and such. Plus all of my friends seem busy and I rarely see anyone. I miss long ago when I was carefree and happy. But I'm trying...doesn't that count for anything? I try to get better but so many things hinder it. I guess on a lighter note, though..my brother Igneous has returned. Something about him seems a little off however, but I don't know what yet..

Written: 11}{14}{06

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