I am broken...

Winter had finally settled deeply upon Edenburgh. The heater was broken in the small apartment complex, and a cold draft seemed to seep through invisible cracks in the stained and musty walls. He could've sworn he saw his own breath. But then, it didn't matter anyway as long as the story was finished in time. The scratch of his pen was muffled dully in the frigid chill his room had aquired, slowly fading into silence as the night wore on. He couldn't seem to keep the thoughts from returning though, the memories. The hatred. It burned at his insides, leaving him feeling sick and nauseated, like he wanted to just expell all of it in one brief trip into the bathroom. But he knew they wouldn't leave that way, that they couldn't. He sank into a despair then. The pills at the edge of his paper stack were beginning to look more and more appealing, an escape from the pain. Perhaps permanently, though he doubted even that. Debating with himself for some time longer, he all the while stared at the thin bottle and wondered. Was there any reason at all to continue on at that point? He somehow doubted it. One hand shifted out hesitantly over the table, wearily... It only took a moment before he'd downed several of the pills, waiting for relief to claim him. Perhaps he could relax at last...

Jagyl sighed and stood up, knocking the papers over sideways and into a thin trashbin. He didn't have time to think about such morbid things right then, his story was still uncompleted and the Tums had yet to take effect and clear his nausea. Stupid things never worked anyway.

Statistically Speaking...

Name: Jagyl Grimm
Age: 26
Gender: Male
Heigh: 5'6
Weight: 118lbs
Birthdate: February 13th
Hair: Brown, curled
Facial: Scruffy, unshaven
Eyes: Green
Family: Brother- Nyrale
Friends: None
Foes: Rox Koss, Nyrale Grimm
Occupation: Chemist, Writer
Skills: Writing, poisons, able to walk unseen through a crowd, lying, collecting information
Faults: Submissive, physically unstable, self-loathing, awkward, silent
Interest: None

Method to the Madness

Jagyl Grimm is a man who holds no life of his own. The wishes of his older brother, Nyrale, and older brother's best friend, Rox, are all he lives for. It doesn't matter what he is asked to do, he will comply without hesitation should they ask it for him. Regret and hate cloud his mind yet he cannot seem to quit, despite how much he loathes his slave like lifestyle. His desperation for affection from his once beloved brother leads him to go to ANY lengths to try and feel needed once more. Jagyl tends to get so stuck in the past that he can't see the future before him, and thus can never improve or move forward.

He's stuck in a constant cycle of self-loathing, despair, and a sort of blind and naïve hope that things can return to the way they were. (tbc)

A Mutual Attraction...

Its funny how one can write about the perfect love for hours. About any love. Tragic romance, spring infatuations, unbridled lust... The words seem to come so easily when you aren't the one saying them. But real life doesn't work that way I'm afraid, and affection in our current day is nonexistant. Yet it hardly keeps people from striving to obtain it. Its the goal we can never truly reach; a Holy Grail that even the most dedicated of explorers cannot find. Those who try are foolish.

I suppose I'm one hell of a fool.

A Blood Tie

• Nyrale Grimm

INFO HURR SOON.

Repetition

Music Moves Me

Gobi was just sitting there the other day in her spinny chair and thinking... Huh. I listen to a lot of music on petpages that I just LOVE and that fits BRILLIANTLY with the page's content. In fact, I have an entire list of people's pages I stalk to have music playing in the background while I go about my daily Neopian tasks. I'd never seen a music award before, and decided it was time to make one for those Neopians who have music I absolutely adore. =) To be eligible for this award, you must simply have a petpage with some form of music on it. It must be appealing, not too distracting, and must fit with the content/theme of your page. Most of the winners listed here will receive the "Golden Gobi" when I find them randomly, but you are free to neomail me with your music'd petpages if you'd like to try for one yourself. And don't try stealing, because only the people on this list have legitimately won the award!

• Ghostyle
• Hansel
• Leperdeth
• Mizmonke
• ArdyPants
• Emsohl

Goodbye is rarely forever...